I am Complete in You
If I am
being completely honest with you, as in no sugar and spice and everything nice
sprinkled on top to cover the vulnerabilities, I wish that I could tell you it
gets better. That someday, you will wake
up with sunshine streaming in on your cheeks, a heart expanding with more love
than you’ve ever felt, and the giggles that just won’t stop rolling until you
fall off your bed and knock that noggin of yours on the floor. But if I were to tell you those things, I wouldn’t
be portraying the candor, because in all sincerity it won’t ever be like
that. It won’t be like a switch that
magically turns on to illuminate the darkness, or a shift in character that
happens overnight. Nor will it be
something that you are able to fully control or gain superiority over, and as
much as that pains me to admit, know that
though it may not necessarily get better, our God who loves us eternally will
remain the same.
So, what
exactly am I referring to you might be pondering? Well, probably what you think, or in this
matter of the fact, don’t think. I am
talking about whatever this applies to in your life at this very given
moment. Rather that be depression,
loneliness, feeling like no one will ever like you, having a lack of
relationships, friendships, and so on and so forth, I cannot tell you that it gets better, because I myself have no control
over those fabrics of your life.
However,
what I can tell you is that you are
complete, and whole, and beautiful, and adored, and loved in Him. That even when you are so sad you don’t think
you will be able to live another day, His
love washes over you. That when you
are so sick and tired of being alone, throwing pity parties of isolation, He sits there in the stillness, comforting
your weary soul. That when you
complain for the thousandth time that you’ll end up forever alone with 100 cats
(and you don’t even like cats) because you’ve still never been on a date, been
asked out, or had someone express even more interest in you than a never used
white crayon, He sees your future and
will graciously lavish His love upon you that has to be enough to satisfy those
cravings in your soul (a personal favorite). And why?
Because you,
and I, and everyone else hurting in this world are complete in Him alone. We
are made pure, innocent, holy, loved, adored, treasured, and valued in the eyes
of a God whose value of us should weigh so much greater than any human scales
society tries to place us on. That as
much as this world tries to tell us otherwise, we can rest assured that in our
stillness, confusion, and heartbreak, He knows what He is doing, and has
nothing but good plans in store.
“And because
you belong to Christ you are complete, having everything you need. Christ is
ruler over every other power and authority” (Colossians 2:10, ERV).
As I lie
awake in bed at night, pondering these things about my life, it is difficult to
not stress about the matter. Even harder
is it to not let the salty tears run down my cheeks and fall onto the open
pages of my Bible as I suffocate in the muteness of stillness that so often
fills the air. Yet, as I begin to
realize that I am His and He is mine, and that I fully belong to Him who
makes me complete, I let those tears fall like flood gates as they empty me of
myself, and fill me with more of Him. I am complete in you oh Lord, YOU are complete in Him; let
this be our prayer.
