The Nice Girl With Good Intentions
The nice girl with good
intentions
Ever since I was a very
little girl, I have had an extreme passion for loving on and serving others,
and regardless of what other people thought I always did this out of the honest
sincerity in my heart to show them the love of Jesus through these actions. In
the world we live today; however, people can pick and prod at these good
intentions. They can scrutinize what you are doing, and eventually, eat at that
beautiful heart of yours, making you feel nothing less than the love you were
so desperately trying to give other people.
Likewise, being the
"nice" girl isn't always easy; trust me. It can be difficult to face
day after day with a huge smile, bright eyes, and glittering compliments for
others when no one is willing to return the favor. Now with that statement,
don't get me wrong. I don't do good things by expecting something in return. In
fact, if I did, that would be ignorant, selfish, and rude. However, what I am
saying is that sometimes, it is okay to be discouraged by always being the nice
girl with good intentions. To be the girl that everyone reaches out to simply
because they know she will listen and genuinely care. To be the girl that
plasters sticky notes on her friend's cars and makes them their favorite
desserts because she knows that it will make them smile. To be the girl that
carries around a zillion granola bars and is known for it because isn't feeding
the hungry souls that we interact with what God has called each of us to do?
And I suppose that's why only God can understand the true intentions of our
heart, while the world merely persecutes their existence, looking for anything
and everything deceptive to mock of their kind doing. Why the world can't even
begin to fathom that as a 21-year-old single female, I love to do things for
other people without the connotation that I will get anything in return; that
my intentions are pure and my heart is right because I want to share His love
with others. That I have a love radiating so deeply inside of me, I just want
to share it with people in order to make them happy. But unfortunately, the
world doesn't see the nice girl with good intentions that way.
The world tries to
misconstrue the nice girl with good intentions into the naive girl, with hidden
motives: the walked all over girl with no possibility of doing these things
wanting nothing in return. The flirted with girl, who was being nice, so I
might as well mess with her heart. The friendship girl, who's closest friends
cannot even fathom why in the world she would choose to break off a piece of
her own heart to heal theirs. The now saddened girl appalled that the world
would think so little of her Godly intentions.
For Godly purposes, come with
all the things that the world hates: 100% pure motives, a humble heart,
authentic character, and a genuine spirit. Reasons that never stop seeking for
good in others, a heart that is so full of Christ it overflows in abundance, a
character so real it shares its vulnerabilities with others, and a Spirit so
dedicated to being this "nice girl" it presses on amidst the pushback
and chaos. For the nice girl with good intentions will never actually be
understood by the world, but the genuine nice girl with good intentions will
carry on anyway. She will give until she can give no more, serve until her
fingers are blistered and blue, smile until her face feels stuck in that
position, and above all, imitate Christ until all who are lost have become
found.
God sees the intricate fibers
of your heart and the love that you so desperately want to lavish upon others.
In fact, He sees these things not only because He instilled them within you to
do so, but also because He was the "nice guy" with good intentions,
highly misunderstood by the world.
"Did you see what Jesus
did today?" I envision hearing the Pharisees snicker.
"Yeah, he healed a blind
man" one of them mocked. "Wonder why he did that? Probably so He'd
gain more followers,” he laughed as he rolled his eyes.
"Oh yeah" Judas
chimes in; "He couldn't possibly really love me, so why wouldn't I trade
in his insincerity for some gold coins?" He remarks planting his feet into
the ground.
"But I did" replies
the solid ground on which each of their feet is found. "I loved you so
much that I did these things out of the good intentions and humbleness of my
heart. Not expecting anything in return, but just offering you a chance to live
life to the fullest with me" He resounds in whispers.
"Oh," the
Pharisees, Disciples, Judas, and World reply as their heads begin to look down
towards the ground.
"I guess we didn't
understand your love," they respond in unity.
"That's okay,"
Jesus replies with a smile as a small tear begins to roll down His face.
"You didn't have to understand it to receive it."
For that's the thing about
nice girls and guys with sincere, and real, and honest intentions. The love
that they give to other people can't be bought, purchased, traded, or sold. It
can't be shut down, destroyed, tarnished, or even defeated. And why? Because
the joy that they find in serving others comes from God, and "neither
height, nor depth, nor anything else in creation will be able to separate us
from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus", and is so evidently
radiating out of both you and me (Romans 8:39).
So go ahead, be the nice girl
with good intentions. Have a heart of humility that fully gives yourself for
the sake of others. That places others needs above that of his or her own and
loves unconditionally, even when you know that these good deeds will be done
without getting anything in return.
Because I have to wonder,
maybe the reason why you've placed these passions in me is due to the fact that
they were first found in you. The world won't be able to understand it- do it
anyway.
"Humility and reverence
for the Lord will make you both wise and honored"- Proverbs 15:33